The Songs
And I loved her (two).
But I love you. Love you.
It doesn't matter
How far we've run.
The heart is stronger when it's grown.
I love you.
Yes I love you too.
And I love you.
Everywhere and everything
That I go through
All this leads to you.
When you look it stops the moon
I swear I lost my breath...
[A Sailor's Lament]
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Caithain? Caithain 's abhaile thailain? Cathain 'mo theach ar bit? Cathain 's ag dulaigh thalain? Cathain 'na mheidh na dtonnta aris? |
When? When will my home be there? When will it ever be my house? When will I ever be going there? When will these waves be spent? |
I love you.
Yes I love you too.
Yes I love you.
It doesn't matter where we are
Or where I run.
My heart only sees you.
Everywhere and
everything
That I go through
Always comes to you.
Well I was
bored.
I'd be the first to tell you so.
And I was so afraid
So I kept it all inside.
Coz I was sure.
That no one else could take me on.
Still I was always drawn to
What everyone else had.
And on and on
The days move on
And how the clock ticks down.
Ah... Years go by.
And on and on
The game plays on
Pretending how we're fine.
Far too human was I....
Yesl I was torn
I was afraid to let you know
That there were days all I thought
That my heart could do was cry.
And on and on
The days move on
And how the clock ticks down!
Ah... years go by.
And on and on
The game plays on
Pretending how we're fine.
Far too human was I....
CHORUS
Happiness wrapped round
my shoulders.
Giving warmth from any coldness
Everything is now open eyes.
Happiness a shining gold
Dimming not as we grow older
Happiness is mine if given time.
Well I was born,
Like everyone we must be loved.
Yes I was born for love but never felt inside.
And I was torn.
To ever show the scars.
But I wanted you to know it all.
But on and on the same tune goes
And I got lost in mine
None would lead me home.
And all the things that I acquired to heal
Helped me not
Far too human was I...
CHORUS
Coloured lights that
gleam before us.
Everything good now comes to focus.
I can finally see the reason why.
Now me and Julie and Billy and
Tim
Went up to the place where the war had been.
We all thought that we would have ourselves some day!
No school or jail, military stay
Ever built a game that was too extreme.
We thought we were skinned in teflon.
We would stand outside the hold.
Till we knew all the men were gone.
Julie told Timmy 'Get down!'
Coz she new it was wrong.
Billy was sure it'd be fun,
But it wasn't this time.
II
Now Billy and Timmy took Julie in step.
They went up to the room where the goodies were kept.
They thought that they were doing well
But they had been trapped.
A fuse had failed;
An electric blaze.
Timmy and Julie could've walked away.
But Billy had made his choice with God
And he began to shout...
Forward lads! We don't roll like that!
Billy threw Julie a rope
But he never looked back.
Julie told Timmy, 'There's fire on the ground'
And the pain won't stop. This time.
Forward lads. We don't roll like that!
Billy and Timmy got tired,
Thinking they would go home.
Julie stopped thinking of fun
As her body turned cold.
[TV Announcer]
In a shocking discovery,
today State Police announced that they had found
the body of a teenage woman at the site of the old
gas re-processing plant near Interstate 23.
Police are offering no further details regarding
the youngster's fate pending notification of next of kin.
It's also a song based on another true story. Four kids broke into an old plant looking to steal some parts and have some fun. The guys wanted to show the girls that they were tough. A fire started and the boys left one girl to die. Many months later when her body was found, there was much talk about how the boys could be so inhuman. No one had the guts to consider that maybe those guys were being all too human.
I Lost My Mind (Trying To Live With You)
sHey Baby!Why did you do me like that?
I only tried to show you that I love you best
And then you put me down flat.
Now here's the problem:
There's no living with YOU.
Baby I'm depending on you to tell the truth.
Come on over here and show me what to do?
Cause I gave up one part of my humanity
Forfeit one third of my sanity.
Man I'm tellin' you:
There's no living with you.
Now lately.
People are talking so much.
I know they only think they're trying to help me Lord,
But it might be nice if they could shut up.
Yeah, it's a problem:
They don't know where it's at.
I only wish that they could work so hard
To try and tell me
How a true love can do you like that.
Cause I gave up one part of my humanity.
Forfeit one third of my sanity.
Man I'm tellin' you:
There's no living with you.
Cause I gave up one part of my humanity.
Forfeit all that's left of my sanity.
Lost all touch with reality.
Shit how tough can any human be?
Jesus Christ:
There's no living with you.
You know too
The rent comes due.
They only change, the time you have to pay
Torn apart
A pain so sharp.
You know you'll have to make one any way.
You're so smart
You always watch your heart
You think that there's always something left to pay.
But I swear
I care
For all the things
That you'll ever dare
If it all seems just too difficult
Don't you see?
I swear
I care
For all the things
That you never dared
If you just can't see the beautiful things in me.
I understand.
II
Worked too hard
To miss your part,
You know you'll have to make one anyway.
Play your part
And make your start
The curtain’s raised on only one more play.
But I swear
I care
For all the things
That you'll ever dare
If it all seems just too typical
Don't you see?
I swear
I care
For all the things
That you never dared
If you just can't see the beautiful things in me.
I understand.
After the fall.
You only hurt yourself.
By thinking that things can never be set right.
BRIDGE I
See dear heart.
You almost missed a beautiful start.
If you don’t reach up your dreams keep floating
Over and over and over away from it all.
BRIDGE II
After love's fall
You thought you had it all
By thinking that things can never turn out right.
See, dear heart.
You almost missed a beautiful start.
Does it all come down to dreams you can believe?
CHORUS
But when you die?
Total consciousness, baby.
Hey girl,
I see they've been hurting you.
Sit down,
For only one moment.
I think, I really can tell what you're going through.
Hey girl,
I feel it all around you.
Take heart.
There's one thing I know.
There is so much more
That you and I have left to do.
Hey girl,
You see where you're going to.
This time,
It's only one moment.
I know,
You really can't tell
What you're going through.
Sometimes,
You feel it all around you.
You're caught.
But one thing I know.
There's so much more
That you and I have left to do.
You're mine. (All mine).
CHORUS
Now baby, I know.
That I've been living wrong and so,
I think that I can help you,
If you're still awake.
Growing pains.
Throwing things.
Bleeding out a lot.
Blinding heeling down that highway.
I am your northern wind.
Are you blown away?
Are you blown away?
Are you blown away?
Are you blown away?
Hey girl,
You know I've been hearing you
This time
We're going to be open.
I know, I really can't tell what you're going through.
Hey girl,
I see it all around you.
Great heart; more than anyone knows.
There lies what a miracle makes.
And there is nothing more than that to know.
CHORUS
There seemed to be no calls on the telephone.
So I thought I'd get it done in time.
But then the thoughts start building up.
Room starts getting hot.
And I couldn't find my tools.
So I turned on the TV news.
Tried to shuck away these blues.
And tell myself it's all in my mind.
Bass?
I've been doing my best just to stay alive.
And I've been journalling every night.
And I've been listing all the reasons I don't need to die.
And I've been keeping it in plain sight.
So when I'm feeling down
Write it down
Take a pill
Calm down
And everything seems fine.
But then I come down
Temples pound
Vital signs all go to town
And I'm right back in my Wednesday night.
Why not?
Now if you're listening and you're wondering
if I took the dive
Or if I'm pencilled in for Wednesday's fright.
Nope I've been thinkin' there's a reason why I still survive.
And it's as easy as two pills each night
And now I can't wait to medicate, it's a date and don't be late.
Yeah every thing feels fine.
And now with joy found,
Do the town
So long as we don't come on down.
Don't let them tell you it's all in your mind.
Then of course, your favourite show comes on, the door rings, or maybe you just can't find those pills you had set aside for the job. And the rich tapestry of life goes on...
I had no clue
What you could do.
Said to myself
There can be no one else
I wish I knew,
Oh just how true.
Gathered myself together
Preparimngto win your soul
Breooked no attempts from our friends
Who told me, 'beware your goal.
Be careful what you wish for.
'You know first time around
New man beware!
Don't jump until you're prepared.'
I didn't!
When I get to heaven and
they let me through,
Here's what I'll do
I'll tell on you.
Gather the stones and the bones of the people
That you put there
With tender care.
Shout out those memories again,
And maybe they'll damn me too.
Pay out the bloodiest cost
For all that you put me through.
I tell you that's what I'll do.
Because first you were wrong,
Then you were bad.
Took everything I had.
I'm telling!
Thinking back on your life.
With everything you've built going wrong.
Making sense in a time,
When every time makes no sense at all.
Strolling back through the aisles.
With every thing you'd want all gone.
Looking down at every sample in place.
Was anything you (still) wanted at all?
But I....
Every time I blew it.
Man you pulled me through it.
And I...
You were the best friend I ever had.
II
Probing each of the lies
Remember each one felt so wrong.
Thinking after each night in your heart.
How every day still felt so long?
And I...
There were the times you knew it.
Man, I put you through it.
And I...
In spite of everything I never said,
You were the best friend I ever had.
BRIDGE
You can bleed yourself
For someone else,
But you always bleed alone.
And you dreamed yourself
As someone else,
But they never seemed to come.
Until I let you know.
III
Reaching down through the
vines
To find your way clear out of this night.
Hoping here in a place in the dark
That you can end an endless fight.
And I....
For all the the times you knew it.
...Man, you saw through it.
And I...
In spite of everything I ever said,
And if there's anything I never said,
You were the best friend I
ever had.
This song is an apology; a realisation; and above all, a thank you.
I knew my life was changed.
Hearing you
Would give me no clue
Of what my heart could take.
The next time I ever felt your smile,
I knew my heart would break.
The happiness in you,
Because of someone new,
Was more than I could take.
Home,
I see a hole in every window.
Home.
My home.
The wind that blows so cold.
Thinking of a time
And all the places
Where you and I would go.
Counting goodbyes
And counted before
We ever said hello.
The end of youth
Reveals a bitter truth,
You see when you're alone.
Home.
I see so much that's come before me.
Home.
My home.
That ever echoes on.
II
Making tea,
And the ticking clock.
The fall of the rain that just won't stop.
The mail
And the radio.
The same old play still showing.
Over and over
They said it again
This isn't a place for a man with goals.
And how many times will it take
Before you can let go?
Take a
seat
At the sinking dock
The roll from the Quay
And it won't stop.
The
shade
Of the things you loved.
The same old wave still flowing.
Over
and over
You trim in again.
It isn't a shape that you can control.
And how many times can you see how it breaks
Before you can let go?
III
I spend each day,
Seeing life never coming my way
And love just doesn't seem made for me
No place I've found.
Yes, we all know.
It takes time for love to grow.
But your world or mine
Every thing I find,
Slips away.
(RETURN)
IV
I hear you say,
Life's never going your way,
And love's tune never ring for you.
No place you sound.
I used to say,
Life just wasn't going my way,
Love just wasn't made for me.
But now I've found...
(Here is everything we need.)
Your love and mine
Everything in it's time
Slips away.
Home.
Home.
I've see those holes in every window.
Home
My home.
No wind still blows that cold.
V
Thinking of a time,
And all the places
Where you and I will go!
(The first time I saw your smile.
I knew my life woud changed.)
Counting goodbyes
I counted before,
And seeing new Hellos.
In spending our youth
We miss is a better truth,
You see we're not alone.
Home.
Home.
I've seen those holes in every window.
Home
My home.
That ever echoes on.
VI
The first time I ever saw your smile,I knew my life was changed.
You brought me home.
This winter's eve.
Looking on up and who do I see?
Well, I've got my friend here
To help me on my way.
Everyone here'd be laughing at me.
Lookin' on up just what could he see?
But I've
got my friend here
To help me on my way.
Though the night is cold and lonely,
Well I won't mind
And I don't care.
One, two, three
You laughing at me?
Looking on up just who could he see?
But I've got my friend here to help me on my way.
Yeah, the moon just takes me home.
Yeah, the moon just follows me home.
And we are safely home.
Third time's the charm... ('Angela' is a character of fiction.)
The bit o' Gaelige in the middle is based on the all too real fears of fishermen where I grew up. Contrary to the common idea of 'a woman in every port' most guys live in constant state of anxiety about their wives left at home to do... what...?